See ya Later

I have been avoiding this.

I think I am still in the "burry my head in the sand" stage right now, so I am going to make this

simple and sweet. Just the way she would have liked it

Grammy, Gram, Ma, Grandma Rochelle, Rockey, GGma-

I love you.

I am going to miss you.

You are the most inspirational woman in my life, you taught me strength and power in a way that no one else ever could or ever will. I am a better person because of you. I will cherish every moment we had together and all of our crazy adventures. There was never a day together that you didn't tell me how proud you were, or how much you loved me. You made sure that we all knew how much you loved us!

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Its never goodbye, I'll see ya later...... :)

I'm tired

I am one of those people that NEED vacations. It does not have to be big or fancy or to some tropical island in the Caribbean. I just need time away from work, and dishes, and laundry, and everyday stress. I need time to relax and breathe a little.... After the past few months I need to get away!

With that being said ....

Its California time again! Ahhhh... I cant wait for warm weather, (ps I heard it might rain and I am pissed and pretending I never heard that) and shorts, and flip flops, and family. Right now I really need family. My mom said this the other day and I liked it... I feel strength in numbers. Sometimes it hard to handle the sad by yourself. But when we are all together, dealing with things is somehow easier. I miss that little crazy old lady a lot lately. The other day I flipped my calender open to June to write something down for my cousin Myshele's wedding and there it was.... June 18Th all squiggled and highlighted... her birthday. I bawled. I hate the fact that her birthday is going to come and go and I wont get to see her. IT SUCKS!! CANCER SUCKS!!! I HATE IT!! (insert 3 year old temper tantrum here). I have this sense and feeling that it probably isn't going to get easy any time soon. But I am hoping I can do a little healing this weekend being surrounded by my loving, crazy, loud, fun, my kind of people, hilarious family.


Strength in numbers!!

It will just be a quickie long weekend trip this time for the old geezer Uncle Mike (frank)'s birthday. They are doing a huge 80's themed party and its going to be a blast! I finally have my outfit all together now... I am going Madonna- black lace everything, huge hair, and tons of pearls. And Gar is going with a short tank top and cut off jeans with bright yellow vans and a neon pink baseball hat! It's going to be so much fun! I will post lots of pictures when we get back!